We work hard. We train, we do the right things and I look and sometimes I don’t see it. I have lost over seventy pounds and I look in the mirror and I still see a really fat person. My clothes fit better people comment that I look really good but I still have to convince myself that what I’m doing is working. I battle constantly with my mind. Temptations still call to me but I battle on. I am at full out war with myself and the stakes are very high I just hope I have the fire power to win. For all the positive people that I interact with there are always some that it seems is there goal to knock you back down. It is these distracters that have always beaten me in the past. I have always let someone’s negative comment weigh on me until I except what they say as reality. It’s really hard for me to do something for myself because I want to do it that my life is worth saving for me and not for other people. I bust my ass in the gym because I want to be healthy and live a long full life. Sometimes I got to say pardon my French “Fuck you this is for me” shitty people are always going to be there. I write this because today I interacted with one of these people, it wasn’t what she said but it was her attitude towards me that really pissed me off. This lady looked at me like I was a fat piece of garbage and really took a shit on my day. Instead of letting this lady ruin me I am now even more determined than before. I want more than ever to overcome this weight for me and well because I also want to give the big one finger salute to the doubters (Hey what can say I can be a little spiteful). Life is short you really don’t need bad people in it. For all the people fighting this battle I am with you, I feel your pains and your struggles. Together we will overcome this epidemic and live today for the rest of our lives.
-Mike
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